What Have I Done With The Gift of Peace?

Although I'm not going to Pretoria this summer, I know that one day in God's timing I will walk upon that land again. But before God sends me back there, He must refine my heart so I am capable of carrying His word throughout this world we live in. How long will that take? I don't know the answer to that question, but I will wait patiently for His call. While I'm waiting on His signal, He continues to break down my barriers that I have put up before Him. I look back on this year at Barton and ask myself an important question. "How often do I feel the peace of God?" I was a little afraid to meditate on this because deep down I knew my answer did not correspond with God's written word. It seriously took me about four months to sit down, humble myself before the Lord and answer this question honestly. About six days ago while I was sitting in my room alone crying out to God I finally spit up my answer! Here was my reply "I don't know your Peace God, It seems as if I haven't felt her presence for ages, I have forsaken her, I have not loved her, therefore she is no longer with me." Writing this message to you is forming many tears in my eyes right now. To think that I believed a LIE like that, and confessed it and lived it daily for nearly six months straight disgusts me! If this is you right now, Listen to your creators voice " My peace I leave with you My peace I give unto you not as this world giveth I give unto you, let not your heart be troubled neither let it be afraid." Read Psalm 23 one of the most beautiful chapters in God's written word "The Lord is my Shepard I shall not want. He maketh me to lie down in green pastures: He leadeth me beside still waters. He restoreth my soul, and leadeth me in the path of righteousness. Yea, though I walk through the shadows of the valley of death, I will fear no evil; for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me. Thou preparest a table before me in the presence of mine enemies: thou anointest my head with oil; my cup runneth over. Surely goodness and mercy shall follow me all the days of my life, and I shall dwell in the house of the lord forever." That is Peace, that is goodness, that is mercy and that is what I want to feel every single day of my life on this earth and in heaven! Eternal life started when you and I accepted Christ as our savior, so let us live in His Peace RIGHT NOW! We must discard the lies Satan fills our minds and our hearts with, keep them not for but a second! I know how easy it is to fall into that trap and sit in the burdens and sorrows of this world felling down about the way life has been, but God is telling us that doing things like that will get you NO WHERE! My brothers and sisters in Christ I love you all so dearly and God wants the best for you aswell as I, If this message is speaking to your heart right now don't do what I did and put this important topic off any longer face it NOW!

If you've read this blog please continue to pray for me! I'm still dealing with this matter daily and my heart is very tender right now, I'm going through a lot I need all the encouragement and prayer you have to offer! thank you so much for taking the time to read this!